Loss of a child is perhaps the greatest pain one can face. I am one of those people that get "too invested" in a pregnancy well before the point of it making sense that I do. I know that it isn't a sure thing that it will turn into a baby, but there is no way I can make that disconnection. I have infertility and 2 years ago, I had an IVF pregnancy fail on mine. I was 4 months into it and I had a miscarriage. It put me in the darkest place I have ever been in my entire life. I was shredded on the inside and had it not been for the support of my peers and loved ones, especially my husband, I think I would've have made it. It's important to surround yourself with people that keep you afloat and help you look for newer avenues. My husband, for example, recently brought surrogacy to my attention and we are now beginning to research it more. I wish you guys find loved ones to look after you and learn to take care of yourself as well. Cheers!