Very hopeful but hating pregnancy
Hi mamas. I am 29 years old recently married and have a lovely marriage. However, I am not cut out for this whole pregnancy thing. I just don’t enjoy it, any of it. I can’t pinpoint prenatal depression but definitely keeping my eyes out for any signs Incase I stay in a miserable slump longer than a few weeks. I am 19 weeks. All is going well, but why can’t I find a way to adapt? I was an active athlete and hot yoga instructor and practiced myself 6 days a wk had the best routine for my life down and BAM, not really physically active so that is a dramatic shift for me def causing some real time lows. I mostly feel way disconnected with my body. I’m totally ok with weight gain, I know it’s part of the journey. I know I’ll be way active again after this is all done with but my god. What was I thinking planning this (pregnancy was planned) and really hating it this much. I just wish there were more local free groups for women to get together once a week and chat in a support group. I can’t find much in Baltimore. But I am searching. Just want you all to know if you’re going through this you are not a bad person it just takes great strength to speak about it so other women know they are not alone. And hey, if you’re one to love pregnancy GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL! i just think it’s emotionally exhausting. Oh and one more terrible thing to check off, I am terrified of having an ugly child. Lol sorry not sorry! If anyone can relate to any of this and maybe share Any thoughts or strategies they find helpful during this emotional rollercoaster It would be greatly appreciated. I just feel so alone down and out and want my mind body and soul back! I know my heart will be in it and that I’m Going to be a lovely mom! Just this 9 month experience is becoming extremely hard.