Why am I struggling so much?
I'm entering my 24th week of pregnancy and I'm really struggling- badly. In so many areas- body image, confidence i can be a mom, comfort in my home (i live with in-laws, got married 1 year ago so still adjusting), hating myself because part of me wasn't ready for this pregnancy and I feel as though I shouldn't feel this way. I'm having a girl and always wanted a girl and most days I feel excited and cant wait to meet her. But all these other issues exist and I'm struggling with it. My husband isn't the most supportive. I don't know if he has his own issues dealing with being at his parents, coming to terms with it all or what. He's really excited for this baby though, i think more than I was. I feel lonely and sad. Sometimes when I'm awake at night or cant sleep or have back pains I feel resentful to him that he isn't awake with me. I told him this several times but he doesn't get it. Worst yet, I'm beginning to feel as though his friends are priority. He's out a lot while I'm at home. I'm frustrated just being home. This isn't my style. I grew up travelling, adventurous, moving around every weekend and now i'm at home feeling stuck in a house i'm uncomfortable in with a baby I love but I'm not sure I know how to raise and with no one to talk to.